Frost Apostraphe

I went from 360 to 0 just now because I am an idiot.

[EDIT: I brought up payment with her and she was willing to pay after all. I guess I misread the situation and I feel so much better about everything now. Feel free not to read the whining.]

The short version is, I'm a bit tired of friends of friends assuming I will work for free. Maybe I will, but maybe I won't. I just booked a shoot, yet another boudoir enterprise (is it something in the air??) for a woman whose wedding I did.

My normal rate for this type of shoot covers my rent.

Sidebar- it's the fourth and I still have no idea how I'm going to pay my rent this month.

I realized towards the end of the conversation with this woman she was thinking I'd do it for free- she didn't even ask or anything because it was a foregone conclusion to her, I guess. I did her wedding for free (long story) and I don't think she understood that that is sort of a big deal in wedding photo land... it's kind of like I gave her a gift worth over a grand.





I will do her boudoir shoot cos I have nothing else on the books, but something in me really wants to make sure she knows I usually charge for this- that I'm not in the habit of shooting for free.

Her mom and my mom are best friends, so maybe she will even read this. That is okay with me. I'm not trying to be bitter or anything, but I do feel a little.... sad?

I am sure all you other photographers think I'm a complete pushover.
Which I am.

*sigh*

What can I say? Usually my pictures, no matter what they're of, just don't look right to me unless I do some cross processing. I think I'm going to make a ring flash today from old cardboard and aluminum foil. Joy! It's getting cold here, which I'm against.

I decided to get into doing people's makeup so I'm trying to make a portfolio. I don't claim to be all great or anything, but what the hell, right? Last night Carly let me practice on her. Afterwards I tried to take photos but night had fallen and flash is- uh- not my strong suite. But anyway, here is how that turned out.




This isn't a real shot, I was just wondering why my flash wasn't totally synching. She, meanwhile, was telling me about a creepy Spanish movie called The Orphanage. Right here she was explaining the kid with the bag over his head. I get frightened so easily!



I'm pretty sure I have the prettiest friends of all time. Carly is not only thin and blonde but she takes better pictures than me. We were just playing last night but yet she got these shots that were off the wall badass. Sometimes I get jealous and feel unworthy around my friends because of how I can't compare to them in any way but hey, oh well. I'm just me and there's nothing I can do about it. May as well make the best of it, right? And be happy I get to know these cool gente.

Damn my low-light photographizing capabilities... still. This is what I got.




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